So LONG...

Nope i am not talking about big one... I am talking about how long i never written anything. Been too busy to mett big one, too busy to come online, too busy to blog.. Its been WORK, WORK, WORK.... Ahhhhhhhh......... I want my life back.... maybe i should quit after all....

Big One again!!!

After my last post, i have started getting some new fans. Well, I got bad news for my new fans out there. Big One is back in my life. Yes, he unblocked me and we are talking again. The 1st thing he did was to stop me from ONS again.. well not totally.. I can still do it with him.... in fact i am meeting him tomorrow night to do it. My relationship with him has been getting more and more complicated. He has a gf now but he is still treating me very intimately. He even promised me not to kiss his gf goodnight forever, just to kiss me. Now i am very confused again... Does he love me more than his gf or does he love doing it with me? His gf is not helping him and he is not getting to do anything with her because she is a Christian. Is what he is giving me now love or lust?